So I am knee deep in crying it out with my little guy. I have tried so many approaches to his night wakings. Different awake times, different soothing methods, different nap strategies - you name it. Pick up/ Put down, shhh pat, putting down drowsy but awake... nothing has worked for us. I have even hovered over him like a maniac and tried to jiggle him through his sleep transitions. Call me Amanda Bynes.
For the record, I also want to point out that I'm not dealing with a baby who wakes once or twice at night. This is a baby who wakes every 45 minutes. So right now I am writing thoughts out into cyberspace to keep my mind from my crying baby (who I am home alone with right now).
This is the hardest thing I have ever done. I feel like I might throw up. I know that having a little boy who is happy and well rested is well worth what I'm going through, and that it's probably harder on me than it is on him, and that's why I've decided to cave and go for the approach I told myself I would never do. And as I type - he has just fallen asleep. I can hear him sniffling through the monitor. Those sniffles you do when you have cried so hard and have nothing left. I can honestly say that being a mom is the hardest thing I have ever done and teaching my son to sleep, which is for his own benefit, has officially broken me. My sniffles now match his. But I know that tomorrow he will wake up smiling and well rested and be a happier healthier boy because of this. Hopefully tomorrow night is so much easier.
No comments:
Post a Comment